Fibromyalgia Awareness Day 2012

Fibromyalgia Collage Art & Blog Post by thehypermonkey

I have always struggled with knowing my limits. Having Fibromyalgia this is not something that can easily escape my notice. Overdoing things leads to grave consequences and I’d inevitably beat myself down for not knowing the ends of my endurance, which leads me to my latest collage painting.

Even though I’ve been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia since my 20′s I’m still in a constant battle to find that balance of what I can do and what I can’t do. Maybe it’s because some days I can do a lot more then others. Maybe it’s because I’m still in denial about the fact that I have such severe limitations on my health after so many years.

Inevitably when I do fall short of the mark, I beat myself up needlessly. Unproductively. It doesn’t do me any good to take me to task for something that’s in the past. I can learn from my mistakes, but self-flagellation is never productive.

This is why it’s so important for me to know myself. To truly know myself, without any rose-colored glasses or harsh incriminations.

It’s also a never-ending journey. There’s always something else to discover within myself. A new hidden facet that I never knew existed as I peel back the layers.

Each metamorphosis I undergo brings me back deeper to who I truly am though. I may change, but I also become more emphatically me. Each characteristic I seem to either like or dislike heightens with each transfiguration.

It’s important that I’m aware of these changes. For good or bad, I’m stuck with who I am. I like to think that it’s a good thing. :)