Doctor
I went to see my Rheumatologist for a check-up this morning.
We went over how my condition has declined, but we didn’t do another corticosteroid injection as it can cause bone erosion if done too frequently. This was fine with me, considering just thinking about getting another one of those shots was making me teary-eyed and distressed.The entire visit was like that, actually. I’m so fed up and frustrated with my knee. It’s been so long since I’ve had to go to the doctor or even take medication for it… why now? Why did it have to come out of remission and swell up and make my knee look all vein-y and even more disgusting?
I just want to cry sometimes, and I feel pathetic for having that feeling.By the end of the visit, I had two more prescriptions, filled 6 vials of blood, and was buffeted by a freaky-ass windstorm on the way out.
And my knee still hurt.
(Source: deer-legs)
